6/27/14

not sure if i'm indifferent or i just care more about something else ; n ;

6/24/14

Feels like he poured some ice-cold water on me :)
"It's all temporary."
"This is only temporary."

Now watching orange is the new black. So much more titties than game of thrones. And lesbos. Wotf ; ~ ; and oh, screw cuddles.

Thanks, netflix, for keeping me company tonight.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand he said he doesn't wanna talk to me anymore :) i'm fucking done here
wow, pointing one mistake after another? parang lahat na lang ng gawin ko mali, may nagagawa pa kong tama sa paningin mo? kung meron man, not enough. you're perfect at making me feel bad. hello? i'm still your girlfriend? i want you but i don't wanna chase after you all the time. we're thousands of miles away from each other so we're supposed to put extra effort for this freaking relationship. lucky you, you have your friends, family and everything there. while i'm here, i only have you to cheer me up. and now you'll leave me without saying a decent goodbye. you know this is something i hate the most. leaving things hanging and unsettled. ayoko ng putanginang iniiwan yung problema. pero okay. you asked for this. i've given up my pride for you long time ago. i chose you over my self-worth because you're more important to me than anything in this world. i tried to make you happy by doing the least ways i can do. if you're no longer pleased then i'm done. and this time it's for real.

6/23/14



oh my god i have such sweet bestfriends T______T it doesn't matter whatever it is, but the fact that they remembered me i'm so touched ; u ; besides, i'm not used to get surprised by my friends so i'm really happy right now!! i can't wait to meet them all when i get back to the philippines ♥

ok i know i'm not in the position to stop him from doing whatever he wants to do. it's none of my business. i shouldn't care until i see it but hey, i can't stop myself from getting jelly ; n ;

in times like these, ignorance is bliss. like if you do not know anything about something, nothing will change. it won't affect your view of the world. you'll just continue being happy (or less sad)

it's actually my fault why i am feeling like this right now. it's my fault for stalking him. it's my fault for butting in his stuff. it's my fault for existing in his life.

my inferiority and insecurity is real. this needs to stop. ok, jiashi? please? ok. thanks.

how do you unlearn things you'd rather not know?

6/22/14

SIGH
i'm the worst kind of girlfriend anyone could ever have. sorry

6/19/14

"respect & understanding should always be present in a relationship. if it's not, then leave."

6/17/14

i'm good at ruining friendships in my own special way. unintentionally, tbh.

6/16/14

(Do I wanna know?)
If this feeling flows both ways
(Sad to see you go)
Was sorta hoping that you'd stay
(Baby we both know)
That the nights were mainly made for saying
things that you can't say tomorrow day

Crawlin' back to you.

Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?
'Cause I always do
Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new
Now I've thought it through

Crawling back to you.
*writes a tldr-ish rage post about some feels i don't really feel like telling anyone, not even /him/*

*reads it again and realizes how (over)dramatic i am*

*deletes draft*

he probably doesn't care about it anyway. i'll just pretend that i don't care either. but i'm afraid i might end up not caring anymore. oops.

ok bye.


6/9/14

but i still don't know why, why i love it so much
I'M TIRED OF FEELING LIKE THIS

THE INFERIORITY IS REAL

WILL I EVEN EVER LAST A WHOLE WEEK NOT HATED

HAHAHAHHA I WISH

I'M SUCH AN IDIOT, JIASHI THE IDIOT

LAST NA TO. I'M DONE

6/8/14

SOMETIMES MOST OF THE TIME I WISH HE HAD A PERFECT GIRL INSTEAD OF SOME USELESS GIRL LIKE ME WHO GIVES HIM NOTHING BUT MADNESS

NOW HE'S STUCK WITH ME

I FEEL BAD FOR HIM

FOR HAVING ME

6/3/14

"just remember there are better people with more decency out there ;)"