sometimes i'm being too annoying that other people might think i'm insensitive. like i'm not using my brain before doing something to / for them. i wasn't thinking what would they feel when i do this or that. feels like i'm helping anyone at all. in other words, i'm worthless. yup. i can't do good to other people anymore. not even for myself. i always cause trouble even when i don't intend to. always.
i make too much trouble that no one would probably want to have me in their life. akala ko dati ang dami ko nang alam kasi mas experienced ako compared sa ibang mga kaibigan ko. but why the fucking hell do i still make a lot of mistakes? even if i try to do something good for somebody, it won't matter kasi mas marami pa rin akong pangit na nagagawa.
forte ko ba manira ng magandang mood ng ibang tao? bobo ba talaga ko sa life? o sadyang malas lang ako? i feel bad to those people who are extremely close to me. they get to encounter the ugly side of me more often. people who don't have me in their life are luckier kasi hindi sila madadamay sa kamalasan ko or katangahan ko.
hahaha kailangan ko lang tumawa para at least matapos ng masaya tong post na to :D