10/31/11

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't ewait, I can't wait, I can't wait...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

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^ this!
iiyak nanaman ba ko?
parang ayoko na e :D

masaya na daw siya e. kaya magiging masaya na lang rin ako.

/surrender
gg sir.

sa wakas, napanood ko na rin yung no other woman! the best!

crush na crush ko si anne curtis pero aaminin ko, naaasar ako dun sa role niya! she'll make the guy fall for her tapos kapag baliw na baliw na sa kanya iiwanan niya rin. at ginagawa niya yun for fun?! kailan pa naging fun ang manira ng relasyon? (pero i'm not sure kung alam ba niya na may asawa si derek bago niya landiin.. hmm nagchichikahan kasi kami ni axela habang nanonood e kaya hindi ko naintindihan yung ibang parts hahahaha) pero in all fairness, nagampanan niyang mabuti yung character but still, nakakainis pa rin! hahaha

tapos nung una, naaawa ako kay christine reyes kasi perfect wife na nga siya tapos ganun pa ginawa sa kanya ng asawa niya. parang ayaw na niya ipaglaban kasi bakit niya pa ipaglalaban kung alam naman niyang kanya yun? pride niya ang nakasalalay kapag naghabol siya. choice nung asawa niya na mambabae kaya hintayin na lang siya kung gusto niya pa bumalik.

pero may point rin yung mommy ni christine.. si carmi martin! hahaha super funny siya at ang ganda ng lines na binibitawan niya! :D sinabi niyang may karapatan lumaban si christine dahil siya naman ang asawa. parang may karapatan siya mang api kasi siya naman ang unang inargabyado :D things like that blah blah.. pero ang ayoko lang kay carmi martin, nung naging okay na sila ng asawa niya, parang ayos na ulit mambabae. as long as walang suki na kabit etc etc. hindi tama yun e.

nung bandang gitna na ng movie, natuwa na ko kay christine reyes kasi natuto na siya lumaban! hindi na siya mukhang kawawa wahahahahahah kung sabagay diba, paano mo malalaman na mananalo ka kung hindi ka lalaban? >:D favorite part ko nung sinabi niya habang nagdidinner sila kasama si derek at anne..

"mababaliw siguro ako kapag nalaman kong may babae siya.. baka mapatay ko yung kabit.. silang dalawa, actually."

o yes! palung palo! hahahahaha ako rin ganun gagawin ko, seriously! >:D i'd rather see him dead than to see him with another woman~ sounds morbid pero genen telege! hehehe

si derek naman muntanga lang dito! perfect na nga yung asawa niya tapos nambabae pa! pero kung sabagay, sino ba namang makakatanggi sa anne curtis?! hahahaha pero mali pa rin yun! buti na lang talaga at bumalik pa rin siya dun sa asawa niya~

sana kasi yung mga lalakeng may balak mambabae, sana wag na lang magcommit kung magchecheat lang rin naman! para walang babaeng umiiyak! gusto ko kayo sapakin sa mukha with super poke! >:D

anyway, ang ganda talaga ng story ng no other woman! sobrang ganda niya gustong gusto ko siya! ♥ panoorin niyo na rin! yey!

10/30/11

i've had enough sleep last night :D 12 hours i think? (wala pa rin kasi akong internet kaya walang ibang magawa D:) at dahil mahaba yung tulog ko kagabi, ang dami kong napanaginipan! hindi ko na maalala yung ibang nangyari pero alam ko marami e. andun pa nga yung cyborgs hahahahah but my favorite is..

i met HER in my dream and SHE liked me! ♥

omg omg omg! :"""""""""""> sobrang nakakatuwaaa! as in pagkagising ko nakasmile ako dahil dun! tapos ayoko pa bumangon kanina kasi baka may mga kasunod pang pangyayari hahaha! basta nakakagood vibes kahit walang internet :D hahahah!

wala lang.. pumunta pa talaga ko sa computer shop ng ganito kaaga para maipost ko yan hahahah baka kasi makalimutan ko pa e. ulyanin pa naman ako. aw.

10/29/11


nashock naman ako dito! hahahahaha yung name kasi agad tinignan ko tapos akala ko kung sinong jepp!! haha si highpants lang pala! tss..

10/28/11

getting over you wasn't easy. but now, i'm back to zero. all those time i spent moving on were gone and wasted. my feelings for you is stronger than me and i can't fight it. you could still make me fall for you without even trying. i think i love you.. over and over again :)

i know, tanga much.
huhuhu super malas ko today D: nawala yung cellphone kong si asmodeus! at hindi ko alam kung saan nawala! basta pagkatapos ko manggaling sa laundry nawala na T^T sayang yung pictures at contacts huhu! at sayang din kasi limited edition pa naman yun! wala na kong pang cam whore huhuhuhu

tapos kakapalit ko pa lang naman ng number! hay, gagamitin ko na lang siguro ulit yung puro number 6 haha!! feeling ko andun yung swerte ko e! hahahahah oh well, balak ko na rin naman magpalit ng phone e. but for the mean time wala pa kong magagamit D: ayoko nung touch screen nangangain ng tanga yun e! hahaha gusto ko bumili na lang muna ulit ng cheap phone :D katulad nung dating binili ko na may flashlight yey :D para may madradrawingan ako bwahahahah

pero hindi pa dun nagtatapos yung kamalasan ko..

paguwi ko sa bahay, wala naman akong internet! tss! naputulan ata ako dahil hindi ako nakapagbayad netong october 20 huhuhuhuhu nandito lang tuloy ako sa shop! nakakairita yung mga naglalaro ng dota ang iingay leche! parang may nagaaway dito sa loob ng shop! hahahah basta ang malas malas talaguhhh! tapos wala pang landline! ay nako, mabubuang na ko sa bahay hahahah! maglilinis na lang siguro ako! hahahah!

hmm, pero keri lang yung sa phone ko. mahigit 1 year na rin naman sakin yun e. at isa pa, hindi naman ako ganun kaaffected tuwing nawawalan ng gamit. sus, material lang yan! ang hindi ko lang talaga matatatanggap ay yung internet huhuhu!

10/27/11

"Happiness is the best revenge, because nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone living a good life."

okay then, i'll live by this :D
i've been saying goodbye a hundred times but i just can't do it. i'm supposed to forget you by now but why am i still remembering the memories we shared? thinking about you is hurtful but it's fine with me. i honestly enjoy talking about you. i love telling our stories to my new friends. i want them to know you. i want them to meet the man i love. it makes me feel like you're still here with me, even though you're really not. it's painful at the same time, but the positive feeling is greater :)

i miss you and it's obvious. but don't worry, i'm trying my best to fight this feeling. i shouldn't let this last longer. i need somebody to stop me from missing him.

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hala! hahahah kung anu ano nanaman naiisip ko! masyado kasing nakakastress lately e. di lang halata pero sobrang nahihirapan na ko :( i'm too young to handle things like this. ugh. dapat nagaaral ako ngayon e, dapat nageenjoy ako sa buhay ko. kahit 18 years old na ko, dependent pa rin ako sa kanila. bakit ba nila ko inaasahan sa mga ganitong bagay? e hindi ko pa naman kaya. hindi pa ko ready. hay, buti sana kung may nagpapasaya sakin e, pantanggal stress man lang hahahahahhah! ex-boyfie where are you? hahaha CHOS!!

siguro kailangan ko lang magmeditate. optimistic naman ako e kaya alam kong kaya ko labanan tong stress :D sana malapit lang si wearvin sakin para palaging may nagpapatawa sakin! hahahahah nagsawa na ko sa mga jokes ni earl at melvin e! sabi ko nga sa kanila, pinagpalit ko na sila sa mga chinese friends ko sa league of legends bwahahahahahhahahaha CHOS ULIT!

oh well, good night.

happy harrowing >:D

10/26/11


omg! ang dami palang maganda sa latest album ng panic at the disco! yung ballad of mona lisa lang kasi pinapakinggan ko dun! hahahahahaha ngayon ko lang nalaman na halos lahat pala maganda ♥ tsaka nakakatuwa yung theme nila ngayon. parang victorian era. or basta yung european chorva! hahahah so cool~

hay.. napaka-eargasmic talaga boses ni papa brendon urie haha!! ♥
i'm not in the mood to do anything.

hmm, nakakapanibago e. wala ata ako sa mood maglaro ng league of legends ngayon :D haha marunong rin pala ako magsawa dun?! tapos tinatamad na rin ako magfacebook or magtumblr or magtwitter or whatever.

what's wrong with me?

kanina pa ko nakatambay dito sa blog ko, binabasa lang ko yung mga lumang entries~ it makes me realize how fast time flies.. yung mga happenings na fresh na fresh pa sa utak ko, hindi ko napapansin, magiisang taon na pala ang nakalipas. nakakabigla lang isipin kasi pakiramdam ko, parang kailan lang yun nangyari pero ang tagal tagal na pala nun.

naiiyak tuloy ako ngayon hahahah! pero hindi ako malungkot :D naiiyak ako kasi namimiss ko yung dati.. hmm nakakaiyak lang kasi hindi ko na maibabalik yung dati dahil napakarami nang pagbabago.

miski si wearvin nga hindi alam kung paano ako patatawanin ngayon e D: natutuwa lang ako kasi at least nagtatry siyang pasayahin ako ngayon. kaso waley talaga e. tinatanong niya rin ako kung bakit daw wala ako sa mood, pero hindi ko alam kung paano ko ieexplain sa kanya hahaha D:

hay.. epekto lang siguro to ng background music ng blog ko! hahahahahahah! kainis kasi e, it's so sad in a good way :D

basta maaga na lang ako matutulog ngayon. wala na rin naman akong magawa e. nakakasawa na magcomputer. nakakasawa na yung ganitong lifestyle. gusto ko na pumunta sa states. gusto ko ng major major change.

speaking of change, i lost 10 friends today :D actually walang connect sa "change" hahaha gusto ko lang ishare :D hahahahahahahahah! pero ayos lang "whenever a tree loses its leaf, a new leaf is ready to take its place" for sure may mga bagong dadating~ magiging optimistic na lang ako hihihihi

huhuhu omg super ganda ganda ng kantang to! T__________T
it makes me wanna cry for no apparent reason hahahahah weird :O

but seriously, this is sooo beautiful! ♥ parang habang pinapakinggan ko to, gusto ko alalahanin yung mga malulungkot na happenings sa buhay ko tapos parang gusto ko idaan sa pagiyak ang lahat. pero hindi ako nalulungkot. basta parang gusto ko lang umiyak hahahahaha! ang weird talaga!
anak ng tofu naman oh! nagrestart yung patch ng league of legends! ang bagal bagal na nga ng internet connection ko ngayon e, umulit pa! anyare?!? TONGUE IN A LUNG!


tongue in a lung talaga!! -________-

kagabi habang naglalaro kami ng cards, biglang kinanta ni melvin yung rap part ng look at me now T__________T nainggit ako!! sabi ko turuan niya ko kaso dinadown niya ko e D: matututo lang daw ako kapag laos na yung kanta hahahahahah! ang sama!

e gusto ko talaga yun matutunan yun e! D: kaso bulol ako hahahah! ang pangit ko magpronounce tsk tsk. pero gusto ko talaga imemorize para someday icocover namin to nila booh, geib at eki :D bwahahahahahahah

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okay, prapracticin ko to ngayon :D hanggang 4 pm pa naman yung maintenance ng league of legends e :D yey
i finally got my cellphone number changed :D nakakadistract kasi yung dati e, puro number 6! hahahaha joke lang, plano ko na talaga magpalit ng number para kapag bumili ako ng bagong phone, bago rin yung number ko hihi :D at tsaka marami na rin akong tinanggal na numbers na nagpapasikip lang sa phonebook memory ko hahahaha >:D adios amigos!

so ayun, ready na ko magsimula ulit! hihihi aja!
"We used to be a team
Now we separated in two

We was like the dynamic duo
I’d never thought that you’d go
But you did, uhh, yeah, you did

Oh baby you left and sailed away alone
And now you got me trapped up on this island
With nowhere to get home

And I don’t want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo"

- Iyaz, Solo

omg, so nostalgic.

i remember my 4th year in highschool, my awesome classmates in charism, the bonding and everything.. and somehow, this song also reminds me of him because this used to be one of his favorites before.

hahahah, it's funny how a simple song could bring back lots of good memories.
sweet, and at the same time, sad.

oh well, i miss all my highschool buddies :D

aww, this song reminds me of my grandmother~
i don't wanna die yet, but i want to meet her again! :D

i still miss you nanay! always! ♥
"And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day"

- Josh Groban, February Song

it's kind of hard to explain what i feel, so i keep posting song lyrics instead.

10/25/11

sobrang babaw ng tingin ko sa mga nakikipagflirt lang for the sake of "may nafliflirt". kahit sabihin pang single and free to mingle, ang sagwa pa rin nung marami kang nilalandi.

i mean, para saan ba yun? pang dagdag chicks? pang dagdag boylets? o tapos? maganda / gwapo ka na nun? hahahaha

flirting is waaayyy too different from being sweet. ayoko ng talaga landian ng walang feelings involved. ang cheap e. para sakin, mas okay pa rin yung relationship tapos pareho kayong loyal sa isa't isa :D

so please, don't treat me that way. medyo naooffend rin ako :D sabihan niyo na kong maarte pero hindi ako katulad nung ibang mga babae na paeasy to get. yak yak parang mga desperada magkaron ng lalake! hahahah gawain ba ng matinong babae yun? kainis lungs!

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pero mas nakakainis pa rin kung nakipagbreak sayo yung girlfriend o boyfriend mo para lang makipagflirt sa iba.. woah! bang! >:D
natawa lang ako dahil sobrang lalim ng pinaghuhugutan namin ni booh sa conversation namin na to hahahahahah



pero sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya tutulungan sa ngayon e. alam ko kung gaano kahirap. i've been there and it hurts like hell. ayoko siya pasayahin kasi it's not a good idea. kahit anong gawin ko, hindi ko siya mapapasaya. siguro mapapasaya ko siya, pero temporary lang. wala ring sense. kaya siguro sasabayan ko na lang siya maging malungkot D:

time is the only pain reliever for a broken heart.
I could see it in your eyes
tasted it in our first kiss
Stranger in this lonely town
Saved me from my emptiness

You took my hand
Remember you told me it would be okay
I trusted you to hold my heart
But fate is pulling me away from you

Even if I leave you now
and it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in, I can't give up
On this love

You've become a piece of me
It makes me sick to even think
of mornings waking up alone
Searching for you in my sheet
Don't fade away

On this love, I can't just lose you, no
On this love, I never felt anything like this before

Tell me the truth, no matter what we're going through
Will you hold on too?

I won't give in, I cant give up
On this love

10/24/11

OKAY, NANAKAWAN AKO NG 200 GARENA SHELLS! >:((((((((((((((

nung isang araw pa ko gusto bigyan ni wearvin ng pambili ng gangplank skin.. take note, SIYA ANG NAGOFFER! i mean, hindi ko yun hiningi sa kanya! actually, nahihiya nga ko e, sabi ko hindi na niya ko kailangan bigyan. tsaka nahihiya akong manghingi, mangutang or manghiram kasi ayokong tumatanaw ng utang na loob. mas gugustuhin ko pa talaga na ako ang magbigay kesa ako ang bigyan :D

so ayun.. kaninang mga 6 pm tinatanong ako ni wearv kung natop up ko na daw ba yung garena shells. kasi nakita daw niya kong online nung 1 pm kaya sinend niya sa garena ko! e kaso hindi naman ako online that time! so naisip ko baka may ibang nakakuha kasi maraming nakakaalam ng account ko! then sabi ni wearv itry ko pa rin daw muna, baka hindi pa nagagamit. pero sabi sa garena, USED na daw yung card na yun! T_________T


buti nga hindi nagalit o nanghinayang si wearv e! 200 lang naman daw yun, di daw ganun kalaking halaga para sa kanya.. pero syempre ako yung nahihiya! kasi bigay na nga lang yun, napunta pa sa iba! D: napakacareless ko kasi, binibigay ko kung kani-kanino yung account ko sa league of legends huhuhuhu balak niya pa rin ako bigyan ng another 200 bukas kaso tinanggihan ko na. nahihiya na talaga ko.

nako, nakakainis talaga! ang sarap lang barilin kung sino man nakakuha nun! ang kapal ng mukha para angkinin yung load! tangina! may suspect na nga ko e! pero wala na kong balak iconfront siya. maagang pamasko na lang ni wearv yun sa kanya >:D

haaay. 200 garena shells na, naging bato pa. hahahaah! soyong tologo T^T
hala! ang daya! sabi ni snowe, para daw makuha yung free 50 skins, kailangan daw may printscreen ng match history mo na nakikita yung 8 wins nung LOL day, for evidence purpose! D: D: D:

e kaso sabi ni wearv napakaunfair nun dahil wala naman sa mechanics yun! sobrang incomplete kasi yung details ng event kaya hindi tuloy maintindihan! T_________T tsaka obligation nila na maitrack lahat ng matches! for sure may ganung system yung riot! kaya bakit pa kailangan ng evidence? tss. hindi pa naman sure na kailangan talaga, pero what if kailangan nga? sayang yung effort nung iba. swerte ni snowe naisipan niyang iprintscreen yung kanya D:

okay lang naman kung hindi ko makuha yung skins dahil sa hindi ko natapos. matatanggap ko pa yun. kaso natapos ko naman e! i won 8 matches that day!

at ang nakakainis lang talaga.. dalawang birthdays yung hindi ko napuntahan para matapos yung LOL challenge na yun! kahit umay na umay na ko sa paglalaro pinilit ko pa rin tapusin! then ngayon makakatanggap ako ng ganitong information? nakakadisappoint lang ng bonggang bongga D:
may sinend na link sakin kahapon si jeffrey (enishi) sabi niya tignan ko daw, horror comics. nung una ayoko talaga tignan, kasi 12 midnight na nun! tapos patay pa lahat ng ilaw! ako na lang ang gising! tsaka baka mamaya may something na nakakagulat sa link na yun! hahaha pero pinilit ako ni jeff! wala rin naman sa isip ko na pagtritripan niya ko kasi matanda na siya! hahahahah

so ayun. tinignan ko na nga yung link which is


ayun, napansin ko interesting naman :D kaya binasa ko na ng tuloy tuloy~

pero tangina! may part na nakakagulat pala dyan! animated tapos may sounds pa! putaaaaaaa! nakaearphones pa ko nun! hahahahahah nanlamig talaga yung pakiramdam ko sa takot! tengene! asar na asar ako kay jeff! hahahaha

tapos naalala ko si wearvin! >:D hahahahahahah magugulatin yun e! kaya plano ko pag nagonline siya ipapakita ko sa kanya yun ahahahhaha! e kaso hindi pa siya online kagabi! kaya kay ian ko muna pinakita haha kaso baliw si ian, ayaw basahin kasi daw nakalagay sa warning, bawal sa mga tulad niya hahaahahah! kaya sabi ko siguro pregnant siya hahahahaha >:D

then kanina, nagonline na si wearvin! kaya sinend ko na haha! at eto yung reaction niya..

We said (20:38):
wtf
wtf
wtf
wtf
wtf
wtf
TAEE!!!!!!

jiashidesu said (20:38):
hahahahah omgggg sorrryy nakita mo??? :))

We said (20:38):
seroso ngulat aq!!!
sheeettt!!!!! :|

jiashidesu said (20:38):
AKO RIN KAYA!!

We said (20:38):
tae natakot aq baket gumagalaw ung picture!!!!!

jiashidesu said (20:38):
SI ENISHI NAGPAKITA NYAN
HAHAHAHAHA OMGGGG :((( SAME REACTION!!

We said (20:39):
TAE NAKAKATAKOT SOBRA!!! RAAAAA!!! seroso natakot aq ok sana kung pics lng lahat pero GUMALAW UNG PIC!!! TAPOS MAY SOUNDS!!
FOK U XA KAMO!

jiashidesu said (20:39):
HAHAHAHA OMGGGG
12 MIDNIGHT PA KAGABI!

We said (20:39):
seroso natakot aq wtf
hahahahhha! tinapos mo?
gus2 ko panoorin e

jiashidesu said (20:39):
HAHAHA HINDE POTEK
NUNG GUMALAW SINIPA KO LAPTOP

We said (20:40):
grbeh napasigaw aq amf tapos ung mom ko nagulat baket daw sabi ko NA DEDS AQ SA GAME wla un! =))) hahhahahah!
HAHAHAHA SINIPA! =)))
tae nanginig aq paker!

jiashidesu said (20:40):
12 MIDNIGHT TAOPS ALL LIGHTS OFF!! AKO LANG KAYA DITO NUN

We said (20:40):
pero angas!
tapusin ko 2
ang kewl

jiashidesu said (20:40):
SOBRANG GOOSEBUMPS!

We said (20:40):
hahahhahhahaha!!!
WAHAHAHAHHA
nc1111111111 =)))))

jiashidesu said (20:40):
NANLAMIG KAYA AKO NUN KAGABI HAHAHA

We said (20:40):
ayoko i try un
xDDDDD

jiashidesu said (20:40):
KAYA NANDADAMAY AKO NGAYON

We said (20:40):
hahahhhahh!!!!!
BAKET AQ PA!?

jiashidesu said (20:40):
IKAW KAYA NAISIP KO AGAD NA BIKTIMAHIN!!!

We said (20:40):
NATATAKOT AQ!!!!

jiashidesu said (20:40):
HAHAHAHAH OO PROMISE

We said (20:40):
=)))) hahahahahahah!!!!!!
w8 w8 tapusin ko 2 ang kewl e wooooh!
atleast ready nq sa mga susunod
orayt orayt here we go!

jiashidesu said (20:41):
PERO KANINA TINAPOS KO YAN!! HAHAHAH 3 NG HAPON KASAMA KO FRIENDS KO HAHAH
GO GO GO
TAPANG O!

We said (20:41):
WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! nasa likod mom ko pwede aq mag tago sa likod nya!!! =))))))

jiashidesu said (20:41):
AHAHAHHAHAHHAHA IMBA

We said (20:42):
hahahaaaha w8 w8 w8!!! e2 na tlga!

jiashidesu said (20:42):
HAHAHAHAH HALAA
SHORT STORY LANG KAYA YAN
PERO NAKAKATAKOT YUNG PAGKAKAGAWA KASI ANIMATED AMF

We said (20:43):
WTFFFFFFFF
waaaaaaaaaaa
ayoko na
mada F!
mada F sobra!!!
TAENA NAMAN UN!
baket nakakatakott!!!!
nag hahanda aq sa nakakatakot na part pero natakot padin aq PUCHA UMABANTE UNG D GRUDGE THINGY
:-s

jiashidesu said (21:15):
HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA SAYANG! LATE REPLY AKO NAGGAME KAMI E :(( HAHAHAHA YESS NAKAGANTI RIN AKO BWAHAHAH

We said (21:19):
hahahahahhahh!!!!!!!!!! DEMN IT SOBRA SHI PROMISE tsk nainis aq!!! =)))))))

jiashidesu said (21:21):
HAHAHAHAHAH!! >:D DYAN KA PA PALA HAHAHA IKAW E MALAKAS LOOB MO E

We said (21:21):
hahahahaa!!!
uo
and2 pa
kc
d aq maka get over
d aq makaka2log n2 e
:|
mag isa lng kya aq sa kwarto
malaki pa kwarto ko
nakakatakot
:))
=)))

jiashidesu said (21:21):
HAHAHAH!! MATULOG KA NAAA

We said (21:21):
ayoko!

jiashidesu said (21:21):
MAY PASOK KA PA DIBA?

We said (21:21):
mmya na :|
pag mejo nakalimutan ko na

ahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaaahahahahahhahah!! tawang tawa ko sa kanya tae! tapos si terenz naman naisip kong biktimahin! >:D kaso sa pagkakakwento ni wearv, si terenz never talaga nagulat! bestfriends kasi sila so nakwekwento sakin ni wearv yung mga kalokohan nila XD

tapos yun, sinend ko na kay terenz.. at tawang tawa ko sa reaction niya!! hahahahahahaha ang sabi lang niya..

"NAKS, GUMAGALAW!"

hahahahhahahahhahahahahahaha imba si terenz! nakakawalang gana gulatin! waley na waley!

haaay, nakakatuwa talaga tong three chinese men >:D parang ang sarap nila makasama! hahahah feeling ko kapag nameet ko sila tatawa lang ako ng tatawa bwahahahahahahahah
I’ve been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn’t have to live
we could start again

There’s nothing left to say
Don’t waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it’s alright with you
then it’s alright with me
Baby let’s take this time
let’s make new memories

Do you remember
All of the times we had?
Let’s bring it back

So long since you’ve been missing
It’s good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we don’t let this happen again

There’s nothing left to say
Don’t waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it’s alright with you
then it’s alright with me
Baby let’s take this time
let’s make new memories

Do you remember
All of the times we had?
Let’s bring it back

Yo ay girl yo bring it back to the time
when you and me had just begun
When I was still your number one
Well it might seem far-fetched
baby girl but it can be done
I’ve got this feeling fire blazing
and it’s hot just like the sun
Know you feel it too my girl just free it up,

May the good vibes run
Girl take a sip of my champagne,
Take a little trip down my lane my girl
wild'n out every night and we feel alright,
Let me tell you this girl, That a my world.
nah change and we nah rearrange,

hey girl mek me tell you this straight that a my word,
and me heard say you want come kiss this
cause girl you miss this
may namimiss ako ngayon D: mga taong hindi ko pa nakikilala o nakikita personally hahaha! medyo weird din kasi wala namang intimate na namamagitan samin. basta namimiss ko lang sila ngayon~ dahil kasi sa kanila, nakakalimutan ko maging malungkot :D kaya palagi akong masaya kapag nandyan sila :D

hindi naman ako yun tipo ng tao na nagtitiwala agad agad sa iba, pero once na pinagkatiwalaan kita, sinisigurado kong tama yung desisyon ko :D

so ayun. namimiss ko sila. sino nga ba sila?

10/23/11

"i tried my best to feed his appetite
to keep him coming every night
so hard to keep him satisfied

kept playing love like it was just a game
pretending to feel the same
then turn around and leave again"

- Maroon 5, This Love

okay, now i'm done with the LOL challenge! >:D nanalo na ko 8 times today pero hindi ko pa alam kung paano maclaclaim yung 50 skins. pero sabi ni wearv, after 4 working days pa daw yun makukuha e.

sa wakas, pwede na ko maligo! hahahahaha sabi ko kasi hindi ako maliligo hanggat hindi ako nakakapanalo ng 8 matches XD grabe amoy yesterday pa ko! hahahah ligo ligo rin muna tapos laro laro ulit yeahhh

unfortunately.. hindi ako makakaattend ng birthday ni ate wenz at bom D: ang gara kasi nagkasabay sabay pa. dalawang birthdays ako invited tss. pero inuna ko pa talaga tong skin quest hahahaha!! kasi soyong nomon yohohohohoho~

oh well, happy birthday na lang sa kanila :D ♥
you forgot to remember me.

i miss you.

yeeeey! may bago na kong natutunan na champion!
si gangplank! >:D bwahahahahahahahah

ang sarap pala nun gamitin! super imba! lalo na kapag 100% critical chance! kayang kaya ubusin lahat ng kalaban! ahahahahahah! pero yung pinakafavorite part ko sa kanya is.. MELEE SIYA! hahahah! i'm so proud of myself! umaasenso na ko hahaha natututo na ko gumamit ng melee characters :D eversince kasi sa online games palagi akong long range tapos magic type! ayoko kasi gumagamit ng melee type dahil natetense ako tuwing hinaharass ako hahahahahah! pero ngayon natuto na ko! :D

eto pala yung first ever pvp game ko~


pagbigyan niyo na ko kung proud ako masyado hahahaha! noob pa kasi ako kaya big deal na sakin yung mga ganyang bagay yohoho~ napansin ko pala, pirate din si gangplank! parang si miss fortune lang haha! lapitin ako ng mga pirata bwahahahahahah

siguro kapag nalaman niya to, matutuwa siya para sakin :)

ugh.. delete delete, i shouldn't be thinking about that.
OMIIIIIIIIIGAAAAAAADDD!!!! NANTRASHTALK AKO NG HINDI SINASADYA!! HAHAHAHAHAHA T____________T

kakampi ko kanina si ian, wearv, snowe at yung isa nilang friend. tapos si gangplank yung gamit kong champion (oh yes, may bago akong natutunan na champ >:D)

and then nung naka-ace ako sa clash, bigla akong napatype ng /all BITCH tapos nagreact yung cyborgs at si snowe!! hahahahahahaahahah miski ako nagulat sa sinabi ko!! what the hell have i done??!?!?!? O______O tapos napansin ko, clan pala yung kalaban namin nun!! hahahaha omg i'm so deeeeeaaaaadddd~ bigla akong nahiya nun! hahaha inaway rin nila ko! tapos nagsorry ako, sabi ko nacarried away lang ako! haha buti na lang sinave ako ni wearv XD hahahahahah

hahaha inaasar tuloy nila ko na nagiging trashtalker na daw ako ngayon XD hahahaha! dapat daw magchange name na ko, Lucy in Hell na! hahahahaha tapos tawag naman sakin ni wearv, Lucy the BITCH Slayer! hahahah

bandang huli natalo rin kami XD hiyang hiya pa rin ako sa ginawa ko! hindi ko rin akalain na masasabi ko yun! ang bait bait ko kaya! nadadala lang ako ng emosyon ko kapag si gangplank yung gamit ko hahahahahaha!

10/22/11

no matter how i try
there's no words to describe
this overwhelming feeling that i have for you

i cant even explain
with all the stubbornness inside
this endless love i can't forget
grew stronger everyday

no one but you
could even make me laugh and cry
i know this doesn't even sound like me
this stubborn heart of mine

listening to your voice
as i stare deeply in your eyes
these simple things that i get fond of everyday
look at me, my love
i will never get tired
you're my every, my everything
you're my everything
love's for you

in our petty fights
never ever won you once
though i always give in to what you say
it makes me happy in my heart

there will be no end
for this love i feel for you
even if a million years would pass
i will only be for you

it may be hard for you to stay by me
even if i lose everything
i will never give you up

listening to your voice
as i stare deeply in your eyes
these simple things that i get fond of everyday
look at me, my love
i will never get tired
you're my every, my everything
you're my everything
love's for you

you will be the keeper of the key into my heart
you will be the first and last love
hear me out, my love
i will live for you
my existence is yours
you're my every, my everything
you're my everything
my love's for you

i love you
you're my everything

---

source: [link]
"Everyone has a secret that nobody knows about.
And the reason why you don't tell is because you know they will judge."
sabi ni ian magblog na lang daw ako para hindi ako malungkot :D hahahaha! siya kasi yung kinausap ko ngayon para mailabas lang yung nafifeel ko haha! wala kasi si snowe o kaya si wearv D: pero ayos lang, magaan na ulit pakiramdam ko :D

cheer up, jiashi :D i don't want to sleep sad~
think of happy thoughts.. and fly fly fly! ^__________^

i will just pretend that there is a huuuuuge cadbury cake waiting for me once i have finally moved on :D :D :D hmmm nom nom! ♥

dapat maging happy ako ngayon bago matulog :D kailangan ko magfocus! bawal magpaapekto sa mga bagay bagay! tinetest lang ako niyan kung gaano ako kadeterminado sa pagmomove on bwahahahahahah! basta nagpromise ako sa mga kaibigan ko na magiging masaya na ko :D at syempre gagawin ko to para rin sa sarili ko! aja!

haaay, i'm so optimistic talaguhh! wahahah baka makarating na ko sa neverland nito sa sobrang happy ko! :D hahahahahahaah take me with you, peter paaaan ♥ ♥ ♥

good night philippines!

10/21/11

bakit ngayon pa?

kung kailan desidido na kong kalimutan ang lahat?
kung kailan nasasanay na ko ng wala siya?
kung kailan nagiging masaya na ko?

bakit???

sadyang nagkamali lang ba o talagang nananadya?

kung ano man ang totoong dahilan, congratulations, panalo ka nanaman.
sana nagiging masaya ka tuwing pinapalungkot mo ko :)
natawa pala ako kanina kay madur :D hahaha napagalitan niya ko kasi hindi ako nakakapagreply sa kanya sa facebook chat! at ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako nakakapagreply sa kanya, kasi kausap ko yung cyborgs sa isang comment thread~

tapos sabi ni madur sakin "ako naiinis na talaga sayo ah, hindi ka sumasagot sakin, pero nakikita ko kausap mo yung mga intsik!" ahahahahahahahah!! craaaaazy!! XD so it means, viniew talaga ni madur yung mga profile ng cyborgs hahahah! stalker siya!


anyway, i really love those three chinese gentlemen! ♥ hahahah tapos syempre love ko rin si snowe, kasumi at jame ♥ at love ko rin yung ibang close friends ko sa league of legends.. pero sa ngayon, cyborgs and friends yung favorite ko :D hahahah simula nga nung palagi ko na sila nakakalaro, kahit maraming game invites sakin, mas gusto ko sila yung kalaro ko hahaha >:D

may kanya kanyang nicknames nga pala sila sakin bwahahahahaha

cyborg tiesto: JIJI
cyborg icefire: ASHI
cyborg pain ix: SHININI
snowe: SHI SHI

ahahahahah medyo weird pero ang cute :D
basta nakakatuwa sila superrr ♥

10/20/11

self-realization # 4

how pathetic of me, letting my whole life be ruined by someone.

the reason why i find it so hard to move forward with my own life is because i'm still holding on to those people from the past. i must learn how to accept sudden changes. clinging to the past won't bring me anywhere. so i guess, the best way to get away from this everyday catastrophe of love is to cut all ties.

i want to feel better, not bitter. acceptance and forgiveness will surely get me better. plus, i have to be optimistic at all cost. i should be happy by now so my friends won't worry about me. and besides, there's nothing to get sad about. i'm too young to be miserable. in fact, i'm so lucky because i'm surrounded with wonderful friends! i must be thankful :D
kinausap ako ni snowe at wearvin nung nakita nila yung post ni rap sa LOL facebook group.

hay grabe! sobrang natouch ako sa kanila! T___________T nakakatuwa kasi yung mga kaibigan na kusang nagtatanong kung ayos lang ba ko, or nagbibigay ng advices na unexpected. and to think na sa league of legends ko lang naman sila nakilala.

ang sarap sa pakiramdam kasi ang tagal tagal na talagang hindi naoopen up yung about samin ni jep.. wala kong ibang nakakausap tungkol dun kasi hindi naman ako pala-open ng problema sa iba. at kung magoopen man ako, sa tatlong bestfriends ko lang. e kaso nahihiya na nga ko sa kanila magkwento ng tungkol kay jep kasi baka napapagod na sila makinig sa iyak ko. puro na lang problema shineshare ko sa kanila. hay..

pero kanina, natuwa talaga ko kasi si snowe at wearvin pa mismo yung unang kumausap . ramdam na ramdam ko yung concern nila kahit hindi ko pa sila namimeet in person T^T

at nung nagshare ako kay snowe at wearv, bigla ulit akong natauhan. tulad ng inaadvice ng ibang tao sakin, sinabi rin nila na hindi worth iyakan si jep. kaya dapat simulan ko na magmove on. hindi ako deserving na maging ganito kamiserable kasi wala naman akong ginagawang masama sa ibang tao. kalimutan na lang yung mga pinagdaanan at maging positibo para sa future.

sa totoo lang, naiiyak ako ngayon not because of jep.. kundi dahil sa mga kaibigan kong sobrang sweet sakin T^T touched talaga ko! gusto ko sila bigyan ng galio group hug! ♥ ♥ ♥

---

at may natutunan pala ako kay snowe :D

sabi niya..

okay lang daw magpakita ng lungkot sa bestfriends ko.
that's what bestfriends are for.. crying shoulders daw sila :">

hay, lalo ko tuloy nararamdaman na sobrang blessed ko! buti nga ako may bestfriend e, hindi lang isa kundi tatlo! :D tapos may bonus pang super friends na katulad ni snowe at wearvin at marami pang iba ♥

basta love na love ko kayong lahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat my gorgeous friends!! :D

OMGGGGG :((((((((((( sira ulo talaga to si rap/kasumi (friend ko sa league of legends) pinost niya sa isang LoL facebook group yung video namin ni jep nung highschool T^T ewan ko kung paano niya nahagilap to e! hahaha pero nashock talaga ko!

bakit kaya kung kailan nasa moving on process ako, palagi na lang may biglang magpapaalala huhuhuhu T_____________T pero ayos lang, alam ko hindi naman intention ni rap na palungkutin ako e D: inaasar lang talaga nila ko tuwing magkakalaro kami hahahahah

nung pinanood ko ulit yung video, napangiti naman ako :D hihi
pero after that, nalungkot na ulit ako. ganun naman lagi.

10/19/11

hahahahahahahah! tawang tawa lang ako kay wearvin nung nahuli ko siyang pinagkakalat yung facebook account ko! kaya pala nagulat ako, lahat silang magkakaibigan sunod sunod na inadd ako sa facebook! yun pala, siya namimigay ng account ko hahahaha! tapos kung kani-kanino pa ko nirereto!

tapos kanina, may bago nanaman siyang pinakilala, jeff pa ang pangalan! hahaha tsk tsk!

Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): jeff
Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): tingnan mo 2
Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): http://www.facebook.com/pusapusa
Lucy in the Sky (3:55): tae hahahaha
Cyborg Pain IX (3:55): ay
Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): wrong send
Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): xsend
Cyborg Pain IX (3:54): sorry
Lucy in the Sky (3:55): hahahahahahahahahha!!! sakin mo pa pinakita!!!
Cyborg Pain IX (3:55): hahahhahahh!!!!
Cyborg Pain IX (3:55): xsend eh baket ba!
Cyborg Pain IX (3:55): dpt kc d mo tiningnan! jeff nga e
Lucy in the Sky (3:55): hahahahahah kaya pala lahat sila zebo, ken, etc nalaman din fb ko
Cyborg Pain IX (3:55): =)))))))))
Lucy in the Sky (3:56): hahahahahhaha!!! e url ko yun kitang kita ko!!
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): hahhahhhah!!!! pero mas malupet ung e2
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): naalala mo?
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): Jiashi Balisacan (Lucy)Photos
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): hi Jiashi Balisacan (Lucy)Photos
Lucy in the Sky (3:56): hahahahahaha
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): =)))))))))
Lucy in the Sky (3:56): copy paste :))) hahahahaha!!
Cyborg Pain IX (3:56): hahhahhahaha!!!!!!!!
Lucy in the Sky (3:56): ang kulet
Cyborg Pain IX (3:57): halatang tumitingin ng photos =))))))
Lucy in the Sky (3:57): ahahahahaa napaghahalataan :))
Cyborg Pain IX (3:57): hahhahhah!!!! kakagago kc eh na iintriga aq dun sa mga
Cyborg Pain IX (3:57): picture mo nung bata ka
Cyborg Pain IX (3:57): ayaw mo ngumiti xDDD
Lucy in the Sky (3:58): ahahaha annie nga e

hahahahaha :D
Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell meIs this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
kanina biglang sinabi ni kuya jay out of nowhere:

"siguro may girlfriend na si jep ngayon.."

tapos nasaktan at nalungkot ako.. nawalan ako ng gana.. parang.. ewan.. hindi ko maexplain kung ano.. pero bigla talaga akong nakaramdam ng mabigat na feeling.. somewhat disappointment.. basta ang sakit lang sa puso hahahahaha <///3

---

hmm, nakakarecover na rin naman ako kahit papaano. actually, masaya na ko sa buhay ko ngayon :D kaso parang hindi pa rin ako handa na makitang may iba na siya D: i mean, alam kong meron na talaga.. pero hanggang ngayon dinedeny ko pa rin sa sarili ko yun.. yeah, i'm making myself believe lies. i'm so pathetic haha T^T

it takes a mature mind to accept change. acceptance na lang talaga ang kulang sakin. i know i can do this sooner or later. i'll get by with a little help from my friends :D

10/18/11

tengene! hindi talaga ako makarecover dun sa delivery guy ng jollibee kanina! ♥

ganito kasi yun. nagpadeliver ako ng jollibee. kaso sira yung landline ko na nakaregister sa kanila kaya hindi ko masagot yung call nila para iconfirm yung address ko. tapos maya maya dumating na rin yung nagdedeliver, medyo natagalan ako lumabas ng bahay kasi in game ako sa league of legends. tapos pagbukas ko ng pinto, YUN NA! love is in the air na! hahahaha!

nakita ko nasa tapat na ng gate yung delivery guy.. tapos bigla na lang nagkaron ng wind effect habang naglalakad ako, tapos nag slow motion pa yung paligid nung nagkatinginan kami, at parang may sweet background music habang sinasabi niyang "dito po ba si maam jiashi?" hahahahah tapos sabi ko "oo, ako yun, kanina ka pa ba kuya? pasensya na" tapos sabi niya "hindi, okay lang po kararating ko lang rin, wala po kasing sumasagot sa phone niyo kanina" tapos ngumiti siya!! sheeett nakakatunaw :"""> hahahahah kitang kita ko may sparks sa mga mata niya! hahahahahahahahahahahahah feeling ko soulmates kami! CHOS!

pero eto totoo, ang gwapo niya swear! :D mukhang kpop si kuya! hahahahaha! e kinikilig pa naman ako tuwing nakakakita ko ng mga koreano o hapon! kung siya lagi magdedeliver sakin, aba! sa jollibee na ko lagi oorder! hahaha napupurga na rin ako sa mcnuggets at mcfries! 3 days in a row na kong nagmmcdo! tss! mcmuffin lang naman gusto ko dun e :D

anyway, sa sobrang pogi niya nadistract ako sa paglalaro ng league of legends kanina hahahah! tapos todo kwento ako dun sa mga kalaro ko sa league of legends! hahahahahahhaha sabi tuloy nila, yung delivery guy daw may kasalanan kung bakit kami natalo hahahaha! kasi di talaga ko makapagconcentrate sa laro kasi kilig na kilig ako! haha!

tapos nung muntik ko na makalimutan kunin yung coke float ko, sabi niya "miss yung coke float, gusto mo akin na lang to? joke lang" sana pala sinabi ko na lang sa kanya "o tara kuya, pasok ka muna sa loob kain tayo, ako lang tao dito" bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahah okay, masyado na kong maharot! hahahah!

e kasi naman e! ang pogi niya talaga nakakakilig! masyado siyang gwapo para maging crew sa jollibee! haha! ay, naalala ko rin pala dati nung nagaaral pa ko sa fatima, araw araw ako nagbrebreakfast sa jollibee sangandaan kasi crush ko yung crew na si jhong XD hahahahahaha!! talagang alam ko yung name e no? hahahah! morning shift yun e :D pogi rin yun promise!! :D palaging naggoogood morning tapos kinikilig rin ako hahahaahahahahahahah

basta bukas tatry ko ulit umorder sa jollibee ng ganung oras! hahahah at sana siya ulit magdeliver bwahahahahahhha!! pag siya ulit nagdeliver sakin, IT'S A SIGN! ahahaha joke lang! hanggang kilig lang naman ako e hahaha! pagbigyan niyo na :D
Cyborg Pain IX: meron aq naalala na jowk gagu maangas
Lucy in the Sky: o game
Cyborg Pain IX: e2 e2 e2
Lucy in the Sky: dapat matawa ko dyan ah
Cyborg Pain IX: hahahhah cge cge cge try
Cyborg Pain IX: Shinini sana aq nlng naging Iphone mo :">
Lucy in the Sky: hahaha bakit?
Cyborg Pain IX: para malaro mo naman Angry Birds ko RAWR! >:) :">
Lucy in the Sky: ahahaha ang bastos mo!
Lucy in the Sky: wala na bang ibang banat? luma na yan e
Cyborg Pain IX: luma nba un?
Cyborg Pain IX: hmmm w8 w8 icp aq
Cyborg Pain IX: ano bang pwedeng i banat d2
Cyborg Pain IX: Shinini anong oras na?
Lucy in the Sky: hahaha bakit?
Cyborg Pain IX: hnd seroso anong oras na?
Lucy in the Sky: hahhah potek!
Lucy in the Sky: akala ko banat
Cyborg Pain IX: hahhhahhah!
Lucy in the Sky: hahahahahahahahahaa
Cyborg Pain IX: anong oras naba kc?!
Lucy in the Sky: natawa ko dun
Cyborg Pain IX: WAHAHAHAHA o db? na jowk ka! panis!
Lucy in the Sky: DUN AKO NATAWA SWEAR

hahahahahahahah awkward moment.
that great feeling when you realized that you made the right decision~

oh yeah! finally, i won't feel bad anymore. and it's so much better off this way. all i can say is thank you :D :D :D

P.S. i regret nothing hahahahahahahahaha!

no more love-related posts starting tomorrow.
i'm too blessed to be stressed :D

good night :D

/optimistic to death

10/17/11

Hello boy it's been awhile
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hide that old feelin' inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby, you now when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
it starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby, you now when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

^ this! yeah, THIS! this is what i exactly feel for him.

everytime i think of him, i always remember the hurtful moments. so what's the point of missing someone who loves hurting you? it's basically pointless. missing him is a bad idea.

honestly speaking, i'd rather kill him than to see him with another girl.
it's kind of bitter but.. uhh, yeah, it really is.

custom game, 4v4, panalo kami! yey :D
and i'm starting to love AP miss fortune :D

ngayon ko lang nalaman na nakakatense pala kapag kakilala mo yung mga kalaban mo! hahahahahahah meron nanaman akong mga new barkada sa league of legends :D at matitino sila! civilized humans :D

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okay, i'm back to cyber world. i, officially, have no life again. hahahaha! but at least, i'm happy and contented :D
I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

10/16/11

i've always thought that my blog is a safe zone. because as far as i know, nobody reads it. but i almost forgot that this is the internet. so technically, everybody could see it.

i'm guilty of being so stupid. yeah.
nakita ko nagonline sa league of legends yung unidentified human na gumamit ng name ko. tapos nakakaasar ayaw magpakilala.


at ang baduy ng spell niya sa pangalan ko ah! nakakainis lang!

10/15/11

evening's not so good.

it's okay for me to be sad tonight.
i know everything's gonna be alright tomorrow.

good night, my dear blog.
thank you for failing me so many times.

i've watched this video for like so many times and brendon urie's sweat still turns me on! hahahahah no, seriously, he's so freakin' perfect. his projection, his voice, his face.. he's just so sexy i wanna rape him :D hahahaha
It's 5 o'clock in the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you're going to bed soon
So I snuck off to your bedroom
And I thought I'd just wait there
Til I heard you come up the stairs
I pretended I was sleeping
And I was hoping you would creep in
With me

You put your arm around my shoulder
It was as if the room got colder
We moved closer in together
And started talking bout the weather
Said tomorrow would be fun
We can watch A Place In The Sun
I didn't know where this was going
When you kissed me

Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone
No longer feel alone

I haven't left here for days now
And I'm becoming amazed how
You're quite affectionate in public
In fact, your friend said it made her feel sick
And even though it's moving forward
There's just the right amount of awkward
And today you accidentally
Called me baby

Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching telly, drinking wine
Who'da known, who'da known
When you flash up on my phone
I'd no longer feel alone

Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed all day
We'll be laughing all the way
Told your friends
They all know
We exist but we're taking it slow
Now let's just see how we go
Now let's see how we go

Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed all day
We'll be laughing all the way
Told your friends
They all know
We exist but we're taking it slow
Now let's just see how we go
Now let's see how we go