i'm not assuming anything but.. i wonder why he always messages me everytime we're both online? everytime.

i find it so awkward when he obviously show his care for me.
as far as i know, he doesn't feel anything for me anymore.
we're just friends. and i'm good with that :D

but he's being so nice to me, that i wanted to avoid him.

i'm unconsciously cautious maybe because
i'm afraid that i might get attached to him again.
and then fall in love with him again.
and then get hurt again.

it's kinda traumatic, you know.

those scary things that happened before,
i don't want it to happen again.