have you ever been hurt by someone and yet you try to find reasons to blame yourself just because you want to make yourself believe that it's not his/her fault?

there are things that i cannot share here in my blog.
things that i don't have the nerve to tell anyone, not even my best friends.
things that are too hurtful and sad.
things that make me cry everytime i remember them.
things that leave me the question "why did it have to happen?".
things that make me feel like my heart is being squeezed.
things that could even make me self-destruct.

those things... are just like this.

miserable, isn't it?