4/28/10

triny kong basahin ulit yung nice guy posts ko dati nung mid 2009. nung panahong palaisipan pa sa madla kung sino ba talaga yang blind item ko sa blog hahahaha naisip ko lang kasi paano ko ba siya idefine dati nung hindi pa kami close.. at kung ano kaya ang magiging reaction ko kapak nabasa ko ngayong naging kami na.

pero..... habang hinahanap ko, narealize ko parang nadelete ko na pala yung entries tungkol sa kanya kasi hindi ko makita T_____T nakakalungkot lang, kasi sobrang mali pala yung ginawa kong pakdelete ng posts. sayang yung mga thoughts, stories, wonders at imaginations. kahit alam kong kadalasan puro basura tong mga sinusulat ko, mahalaga pa rin yun kasi parang kahit sa paraan ng paksusulat lang, pwede kong gawing makatotohanan yung nasa isip ko. para masabi lang na minsan na tong nakexist sa utak kong napakagulo :D

oh well, sayang. bukas tatry ko na lang ulit gumawa ng post tungkol kay nice guy. hindi ako inspired ngayon sapakat inaantok na ko. time check. 1:32 am. good night humans!
hindi ko alam kung bakit sa araw araw na ginawa ng diyos, lagi kong napupuna yung 11:11 pm! two consecutive days na to nung isang araw! tapos after two days ulit (ngayon na to), napansin ko nanaman!

tapos nung shinare ko yun kay jep. sabi niya, may nakapaksabi na rin daw sa kanya ng ganun. yun pala, yung mga pinsan niya nung nasa province siya. ganun rin yung napapansin. 11:11 pm.

ano ba talagang meron??? may pangitain ba yan o ano? sabihin mo nga.
yan ang gusto ko sayo e, masyado kang open minded :D kaya mong ishare sakin lahat~ kumbaga kung ano yung nasa isip mo, sinasabi mo talaga. masyado rin tuloy akong nagiging comfortable sayo.

mas gusto ko yung ganyan. sa totoo nga lang natutuwa ako sayo. kasi pinapakita mo sakin yung mas mabuting side. yun bang walang lihim na tinatago! pinaparamdam mo kasi na pwedeng pwede kitang paktiwalaan. lalo tuloy akong nafafall sayo. hahahahahahah

i love you pramis.

4/26/10

sige payag na ko. narealize ko rin na hindi naman talaga mahalaga kahit sa anong school ako makaral. at kahit ayaw niyo sa course ko, basta wala akong masisingko o matretres e okay na yun :D may point kayo e.. gusto ko lang makagala kaya gusto ko sa school na malayo sa bahay. tsk.

may atraso pala ako sa kanya. kahit sino siguro na nasa sitwasyon niya, sasama yung loob pag nangyari yun. sorry T__________T masyado akong nacarried away~ hindi ko yun sinasadya. napakaselfsih ko haaay. kaya kahit sa request niya na lang na makaral ako sa malapit na school, susundin ko na para makabawi man lang sa nagawa ko. sorry talaga T^T

at isa pa, narealize ko na.. hindi hadlang ang pagiging malapit ng school ko sa bahay kung gusto ko gumala :D :D :D bwahahhahahahha
narinig kita na sinabi mo yung line na "the end of everything..." na sinulat ko dito sa blog ko! tapos nung pinalo kita, patay malisya ka! ay sos. playing safe na hindi mo binabasa tong blog ko. emf.

wag ka ngang sinungaling please lang.

i hate you. really -_____-

4/22/10

hey! you! yes, you! let me know if you're reading my blog. okay? okay. thanks :D
ang sarap siguro marinig yan kung ako yung tinutukoy mo. gusto kong subukan na iassume na ako nga yan but the more i try, the more i just feel the pain... pain that i have no idea where it is coming from. all i know is im hurting inside.

ang emo ng post na to emf.

oh well, tindi pala ng side effects. ngayon ko lang naramdaman e. ansakit pala. ouch.

4/21/10

To those who are married .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story..

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
kanina pagkagising ko, tinignan ko agad yung mga text messages sa phone ko. no important messages kaya delete kagad. then i tried remembering the things i did lat night before i go to sleep. ohh yeah, now i knew it. we broke up last night.

pero...

pinilit kong alalahanin kung totoo bang wala na kami o panaginip lang. dati kasi nung naging kami, gabi na rin nun. kaya nung pagkagising ko, akala ko panaginip lang na kami na. kasi dati nung pacrush crush lang ako, walang wala sa layunin ko na maging kami. gusto ko crush lang. pero hindi pala ganun. narealize ko na hindi na ako single simula sa araw na yun dahil sinagot ko na siya. at may boyfriend na talaga ulit ako. ang una kong naisip, paano ko siya haharapin sa monday? (saturday nung time na yun e.. at tiyak magkikita kami sa school sa monday sapakat classmates kami. err) hindi ako makapaniwala.

at ngayon...

talaga palang wala na kami. hindi yun panaginip. totoo na talaga to. sa loob ng ilang buwan, naging masaya ako sa kanya. i dont know how to put it in words, pero andun yung tinatawag na "contentment" ko sa kanya. para bang wala na ko hahanapin pang iba. pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko, totoo ngang wala na. hindi rin ako makapaniwala.
yeah, i did it! :D but you know what, im not happy. i feel so guilty.

the good thing there is.. he said hes already expecting that im going to do this. i dont have to feel so much guilt since he already knew it. if i know, hes just waiting for me to do this thing. oh whatever. im being too bitter ahahahahha

its just that... we were not meant to be.

t h e e n d o f e v e r y t h i n g .

4/20/10

dinelete ko na yung isa kong blog. pero bago ko idelete yung blog na yun, inexport ko muna tapos nilipat ko dito sa greenlemonlime. kaya lahat ng post ko ngayon, dito na mauupdate. wala lang. para lang maiba. punong puno kasi yung dashboard ko ng mga abandoned blogs. pero wala naman akong magawa kundi idelete sila. kung makikita niyo lang sana yung dashboard ko, masasabi niyo na lang "dashboard ba to ng matinong blogger?" hahahahahah

naisip ko tuloy, ilang blogs ko na kaya ang nadelete ko? nasasayangan tuloy ako sa stories at curiousities. sayang. pero susubukan ko na talaga na dito na lang makstick :D mahirap yung palipat lipat. walang kasiguraduhan emf. in short, malabo! hay.
okay, napanaginipan ko break na daw kami. ahahahahahahh

real life. may usapan kami na hindi kami pwedeng gumala ng hindi magkasama. maliban na lang syempre kapag personal na lakad ng pamilya. pero kapag mga ordinaryong gala lang kasama yung kaibigan, kaklase o kung sino pa, dapat magkasama kami. kaya tuwing maklalaro ako ng nx, dapat andun siya. at kung may gusto siyang puntahan, dapat kasama din ako. pak merong hindi tumupad samin, papatayin ko siya :D

eto na yung panaginip ko. nakita ko daw si jep somewhere malapit sa laco. nakatambay may kasamang mga nilalang na hindi ko kilala. sigurado akong hindi charism at hindi rin namin kabatch! parang mga undergrads sa laco? O_____O ang ginawa ko, naktago ako para hindi niya ko makita dun. tapos napansin ko si earl na nandun din (pero hindi sila magkasama ni jep) tinawak ako ni earl para ituro sakin na nandun si jep. paksigaw niya ng pangalan ko, napansin ni jep na nandun ako. tinawak din ako ni jep pero nahihiya ako kaya hindi ko siya pinansin. nung medyo nakalayo na ko, narinig ko na sinabi nung mga kasama niya na "wow ano yun, parang wala lang ah? parang hindi mo girlfriend ah?" tapos ang sagot ni jep "oo ganyan talaga yan e" takte yan! kaya lang naman hindi ako lumapit sa kanya nun dahil nahihiya ako sa mga kasama niya at medyo unfair ang tingin ko dun dahil nga sa pagkakaalam ko, may usapan kami na dapat kami lagi ang magkasama.

sunod na eksena. ang setting, graduation practice namin. tapos syempre sa iba siya nakapila, kaya may iba nanaman siyang mga kasama. ang masaklap pa dun, parang ang laki ng galit ko dun sa mga taong kasama niya. although hindi ko naman talaga kilala kung sino yung mga yun, pero alam mo yun, parang sa pagkakaalam mo naiinis ka sa mga taong yun. at ayun, nung pauwi na hindi kami nagkasabay. kaya hinintay ko siya sa ministop. pero ang kakaiba dun, nasa underground yung ministop!! ang weird nga e, kailangan mo pa bumaba ng napakataas na hagdan bago makapunta sa ministop. parang hideout ng mga seniors yun hahahah tapos ayun nakita ko yung mga wara nakatambay dun. hinintay ko si jep pero ang tagal niya. tapos nung dumating pa siya, hindi man lang niya ko pinansin. inuna niya pang kausapin yung mga ibang tao dun.

then nakipakbreak na ko. dun niya narealize na may mali siya. kaya hindi siya pumayag na makhiwalay kami. pero since nililigawan ako ni emman (sa panaginip lang to ah!! hahahahah) sinagot ko na siya. gusto ko siya nun at hindi ko siya ginamit. hindi ko rin alam kung bakit sa lahat ng lalakeng kakilala ko, si emman pa?! were not even that close! O____O at yun nga, medyo feel ko naman si emman nun kaya sinagot ko na. at para din tumigil na si jep.

nung pauwi na kami, galing kami sa laco, tatawin sana kami papunta sa likod ng dunkin donuts kasi may yellow cab dun. balak namin kumain dun XD hahahah nakasalubong pa namin si eunice at monica O____O e habang tumatawid kami, hinahawakan ko yung cheeks ni emman, tapos nak-hi sakin si eunice. nakita rin niya yung ginagawa ko kay emman. alam kong naisip ni eunice "kakabreak lang nila ni jep tapos may pinalit kagad? blah blah.." (sa panaginip lang ulit!) parang ang sama ng dating ko diba? err. pero hindi na yun mahalaga. nung malapit na kami sa yellow cab, nakita ko si jep nasa likod namin sinusundan kami. pakdating namin sa yellow cab... walang salamin??? para ka lang kumain sa siomai house. pakharap mo, counter. paktalikod mo, chairs and tables. para kaming nasa loob ng doll house.

at pakatapos nun, nagising na ko. weird diba?

pakagising ko, giniem ko kagad yung tungkol sa panaginip ko. tapos nakreply si sora dahil siya lang naman sa list ko ang nakakakilala kay emman. sabi niya siguro daw kaya ganun ang napanaginipan ko, dahil simula nung isang araw pa e ganun na yung iniisip ko.

yeah, you read it right. wak na munang maktanong dahil hindi pa ako ready sumagot.

4/18/10

All Im Saying Is That Sometimes Baby
Theres Nothing Wrong With Giving Me
A Little Room To Breathe
Baby I Just Need A Little Space
A Little Break From You Today
Now I Dont Want You To Go Away
But Just For Today Go Over There

it was sweet but okay thats a little much~ wuhhh MAJOR LSS.

sometimes, i feel like im no longer making any sense at all. see? nonsense nga talaga. haaay.

what a weird feeling -_______-
i love you. but i think this feeling would not last.

sigh... pessimistic much.

4/17/10

so yeah, i passed. at kung sure na talaga ako sa feu, baka sa tuesday na ako makenroll. ang problema ko na lang ngayon, nacoconfuse pa rin ako sa course na kukunin ko. emf. pinaparanoid ko nanaman tong sarili ko as usual. pakbigyan na lang haaay. sana as soon as possible makapakdecide na ko kung ano ba talaga balak ko sa buhay ko. ang hirap ng ganito. kung kailan last minute chaka ako kikilos. sus. walang mangyayari sa buhay ko kung lagi akong nalalate makdecide.

start thinking now, nekowaii.

think.

4/16/10

do you think making fun of those so-called jejemons is cool?

then think again :D sorry to say but youre not cool enough for me.

over-exposed yang issue na yan. to the point na hindi na bumebenta sa madlang people. alam niyo ba na kapag masyadong naexpose yung isang bagay, hindi na yun maganda sa paningin ng iba. kaya nga ang pagkain na madaling mapanis, dapat kinakain agad bago pa yun maspoil para mapakinabangan pa.

hope you get my point. naaannoy na kasi ako sa mga jejemon haters.

mga feeling cool sus.
i looked for the lyrics of stuttering. and i noticed that there's a line there that really makes a lot of sense XD

I don't even know if I can even be me
Cause it's so hard to be me when you're next to me

NAKAKARELATE E! ahahahahahahah hanggang ngayon kasi medyo naiilang pa rin ako kay nice guy. and i also dont know the reason why O________O pati siya minsan naktataka kung bakit ako nahihiya (or something like that?) kapak nandyan siya. kung ano yung ugali ko nung time na crush crush ko pa lang siya, ganun pa rin hanggang ngayon. minus the harutan sakitan at asaran ahahahah pero sa totoo lang, may kilig factor pa rin! bwahahahah feeling ko bumabata ako~

ah leche.
im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh
im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh
im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh

honestly, nalaman ko lang yung stuttering nung narinig kong madalas pinapatugtog or kinakanta ni ceddy yan nung patapos na yung school year. at pakatapos nun, naadik na ko! XD hanggang ngayon, hindi na siya huminto sa pakplay sa utak ko! at tuwing naririnig ko yan napapasayaw pa rin ako hahahahaha actually lahat naman ng mga kantang biglang kinakanta ni ceddy na-lss ako e. AT OO KASAMA DUN YUNG LECHENG MOMAY NA YUN! hahahahahahahah

sa umaga, sa tanghali, sa hapon, sa recess, sa lunch, sa dismissal, uulit-ulitin niya yung pagkanta hanggat walang pumapansin sa kanya! buti na nga lang madalas bumebenta sakin yung kanta niya e. AY LAHAT PALA! owu lahat ng kanta niya benta sakin. pati na rin yung mga corning jokes! ahahaha pero eto talaga, malakas ang impluwensya ni ceddy pagdating sa mga kanta! paano ba naman kase... pag may nagustuhan siya na kanta, may teacher man o wala, basta sinumpong siya ng pagkanta, mapapasabay ka talaga XD ahahaha kakaiba pa yung style ng boses niya. para bang pinipilit na gumanda yung boses kahit hindi naman talaga. ahhahaah joke lang. pero nakakatawa talaga pakinggan :D

wala lang, naalala ko kasi talaga si ceddy pak naririnig o naiisip ko yung stuttering. LSS pa naman ako ng bonggang bongga dun.

im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh
im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh
im stuttering uh uh uh uh uh

o see? ayan nanaman.
ikumpara mo naman yung number of posts ko nung march... at number of posts ko ngayong april! ahhahahahahahahha anong petsa na oh nakaka twenty something posts pa lang ako sus. halatang tinatamad XD ahahahahah
MERON AKONG MALAKING PROBLEMA
im sorry if i cant give you everything you wanted most in your life. but you must thank me because i can give you the things you never thought that you would like.

o diba parang pahumble na may twist ng kayabangan! :D nyahahahahah for your information, hindi ko yan pinapatungkol sa kanya! yan yung gagamitin kong trademark quote ng imaginary character ko bwahahhahahah

oh well anyway, speaking of my imaginary character, let me introduce to you... BOUGART RIVERA :D nyahahahah ayon sa imagination ko, si bougart ay isang matipunong lalake na habulin ng chicks! kilabot din siya sa mga gym dahil sa kanyang galit na galit at naghihiganting mga masels! laging naka-gel ang spiky niyang buhok, nakaitim na shades kahit gabi na at madalas mo ring makikita na nakataas ang kanyang kaliwang kilay. nakasuot siya ng itim na biker shoes, pants at jacket. para siyang vest pero sleeveless. hindi rin nakabutones yung jacket niya dahil gusto niyang ipakita sa madlang people ang six pack abs niya. kung akala niyo mayabang si bougart, nagkakamali kayo! sa katunayan ay malayo siya sa mga away dahil mabuting siyang tao. hindi siya mabait!! dahil kung mabait ang isang tao, pagbibigyan lang niya ang masasamang bagay at hindi ito itatama. pero kung mabuti siyang tao, laging sa mabuti lang siya kumakampi... natutunan niya yan sa teacher niya noong fourth year high school pa siya (sino bang nagtatanong? wala naman diba?) anyway, kilala rin siya sa lugar nila bilang bart (short for bougart) at talagang tinitilian siya ng mga kababaihan... pati na rin ng ibang mga kalalakihan! kaya niyang bumuhat ng refrigirator ng walang kahassle-hassle at tuwing makikita mo siyang naglalakad, mararamdaman mo talaga na biglang tutugtog sa utak mo ang kantang macho ng parokya ni edgar. macho pare.

o ayan, depende na lang sa imagination niyo kung anong klaseng karakter nga ba talaga ang bumabalot sa katauhan ni bart. hahahahahah pero sa description pa lang, maaalala mo na agad yung mga goons sa pinoy action films! maliban lang dun sa ugali niya O_____O kasi ginawa kong mabait si bart para mas mahalin siya ng karamihan. bwahahahahah pero pag physical na kaanyuhan, goons na goons talaga ang dating! machong macho talaga pare. di bale next time idradrawing ko siya para pare-pareho tayo ng napipicture out ahahahahah

wak mo nang isipin yung sinabi ko kanina regarding dun sa quote. hahahaha alam kong mapapaisip ka kung gagawin ko ba talagang trademark quote niya yun. bigla ko lang kasi naisip at siningit ko na lang dito sa major introduction sa imaginary character ko para hindi masyadong maexpose XD pero wala talagang kinalaman yun sa kanya ah!!! nako nako.

ahahahhahah defensive much? :D
siguro pakatapos na lang ng swimming ng charism ako magiging active ulit sa cyber world XD katulad nga ng sinabi ni jep, masyado akong busy... busy sa mga bagay na hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga hahahah sa totoo lang nabubusyhan talaga ako sa buhay ko. pero tuwing iniisip ko kung ano nga ba pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon, wala akong makitang good side O______O narerealize ko na lang na napakaunproductive ko pala. wuhhh

anyway, nakupdate lang ulit ako kasi mukhang lalangawin na tong blog ko kapak hindi ko binuksan. hahahahha
our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

- one of my favorite quotations O________O

4/9/10

nagkataon na contrasting masyado yung mga ugali natin. kaya eto, ayaw pa rin kitang kausapin. mapride much?? nahh. naiinis lang talaga ako. naiinis ako kapak naaalala ko yung ginawa mo. alam kong hindi mo naman yun sinasadya. pero bakit ganun? sinubukan ko na nga na pilitin ka. pero walang nangyari. siguro sadyang yun talaga yung bagay na pinakaayoko, yung namimilit.. pinanganak akong hindi magaling sa bagay na yan. kaya sorry.
wahhhhhhhhhhh kung kailan last minute chaka ako pinipigilan umalis ni madur T_____________T naguiguilty ako!! umokay na ko kay geib na sasamahan ko siya sa ozine fest e~ at isa pa, gusto ko rin naman talaga umattend! medyo matagal tagal na rin akong hindi nakakaattend ng convention kasi wala akong kasama. haaaaaaaaay

bakit ganun -_____- pak umaalis ako ng hindi nakpapaalam kung saan ako pupunta, sobrang nagagalit siya. pero pak sinabi ko naman sa kanya na may pupuntahan ako, nagagalit rin siya. ang labo emf.

4/8/10

finally!! natapos na rin yung problema ko sa school~ maybe sa october na ulit ako makakabalik para sa yearbook. oh well, im gonna miss you laco! im hoping that we will see each other again... REAL SOON! wait for me okay? :D

FEU here i come! bwahahahah
hindi ba nakakapikon yung mga taong mahilig umasa tapos pag nakaron ng konting aberya o ano, ikaw tong sisisihin niya. kumbaga ganto lang yan e. inaalalayan mo na nga yung tao, hindi pa rin siya kuntento! parang ang gusto pa niya mangyari e buhatin mo siya. hay nako.

hanggat maaari kanina ayokong magalit sayo kasi ayokong sumabay sa mga problema mo sa clearance. e kaya lang sinasamahan na nga kita, sinusungitan mo pa ko. kung wala lang tayong kasama kanina, pinalampas na sana kita. e kaso nahihiya rin ako kasi may naaabala tayong tao. imbis na nakuha na niya yung card niya, hinatak ko pa siya para masamahan ka namin.

naiinis ako sayo ngayon. ayaw kitang makausap.

4/6/10

lately, i saw a lot of my facebook friends giving their rants about the jejemon stuff. and now, i just want to share my rants too~ not about those jejemons, but about those people who bash them :D

theres nothing wrong if you get annoyed by jejemons. sa totoo lang, i also get irritated by them too. pero hindi naman ako over acting na talagang ipinapaalam pa sa buong mundo kung gaano ko kinakasuklaman yung mga jejemon na yun. i think it would be so much better if you would just shut up rather than bash those people with nonsense rants.

why do you guys hate those people? curse them? make anti-jejemon groups and pages? join and become a fan? try to stop them with the way they want to type? now what? did it make you happy? did it make you become richer? did it make you feel proud? it did not. you didnt affect theyre lives, but they did affect yours.

the hell do you care if they want to type LiKe tHiSzS? come to think of this... its their life! and sad to say, you dont have any business with them! why not just mind your own business and keep your mouth shut? dont you think its much better huh? :D yung iba nga napapansin ko... parang nakikihate lang sa jejemon kasi feeling nila cool na sila kapak nakakapaktype sila ng matino. the hell -_____- so immature.

no, im not trying to raise the jejemon's flag or whatever. im just wondering, whats the deal with them? i mean, as long as they doesnt hurt you or offend you, theyre good :D wala ka nang pakialam kung anong gusto nilang gawin sa buhay nila! so ngayon, kung affected ka talaga sa pakttype nila, ikaw na talaga tong may problema.

kung natatamaan ka sa sinasabi ko, e di mabute! ahahahah joke lang. pero kung feeling mo pinapatamaan kita, hindi ako maksosorry dahil wala naman talaga akong gustong patamaan. i just want the people to realize that bashing these jejemon people is basically pointless~ youre just giving yourself a reason to get upset eventhough theres really nothing to get upset with O_____O

honestly, i think bashing is stupid. and the more they talk, the more theyre just proving me right :D
why do asians like posing for photos with the peace sign?
if you know the answer, please let me know~
nacurious ako bigla ahahahahah
SHIT! O__________O and thats all i can say ahahahha! because the words amazing, incredible, awesome, terrific, astonishing, excellent, superb, brilliant, tremendous, phenomenal, outstanding, impressive, unbelievable, remarkable, miraculous, surprising, horrific, frightening, wonderful, breathtaking, pleasing, great and even perfect -- still not enough to explain how beautiful his works are! :D i have no idea what kind of imagination he has... but im pretty sure that every concept he present, every line art he make, every paint he spray and every image he draw are all extraordinary! his work of art is truly unique~ if only he live before the common era, the people there might think he is the son of God XD

go check him out for yourself! and oh, here is his website.



gusto kong gumawa ng libro ♥



- pangarap ko yan dati nung first year high school ako XD ahahahahhahaha
"not everyone can become a great artist... but a great artist can come from anywhere."

wuhh wala lang :D sure na talaga ako sa fine arts major in advertising~ feelingerang artist mode activated! ahahahahahha FAR EASTERN UNIVERSITY, YOURE DEAD XDDD

sayang at hindi ako sa catholic school natuloy -_____- oh well. good luck. at least may school na ko yey!
feeling ko nababasa pa rin niya to kahit dinedeny niya~ at siguro kaya hindi ko siya matrack kasi phone ang gamit niya. haaay.

konsensya mo naman!





o kala mo naman ikaw yun? sus.

4/5/10

kung hindi ka interesado sa isang bagay, hinding hindi ka matetempt na subukan yun kahit pilitin ka pa ng kahit sino. kasi alam mo sa sarili mo na ayaw mo talaga.

pero kung interesado ka naman dun sa bagay na yun, gagawin at gagawin mo yun kahit alam mong hindi na tama. kasi nga gusto mo e.

kaya nga kung ayaw mo talaga yung bagay na yun, bakit ka pa maksasayang ng panahon para ientertain yun?

kung ginawa mo man yung bagay na yun, ang ibig sabihin lang e gusto mo nga.

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nga pala, applicable rin yan sa tao -_____-

wala akong gustong ipunto. narealize ko lang talaga.
marami naman talaga akong gustong ipost e...





...sadyang tinatamad lang ako -_____-
first of all, happy birthday to sir ace soberano :D

natutuwa ako sa wall ni sir ace ngayon. dahil nga birthday niya ngayon, napakaraming bumati sa kanya. hindi lang binaha yung wall niya... binagyo na, nalandslide pa at nakmistulang state of calamity sa dami ng nakpaulan ng greetings sa kanya :D wala lang natutuwa lang ako~ kasi simula nung graduation day, kapansin pansin kay sir ace yung pagiging malungkot niya. pati na rin yung pagkamiss niya sa batch namin. pero nung nakita ko yung lahat ng mga bati sa kanya ng mga kaibigan niya, estudyante, katrabaho at iba pang nakakakilala sa kanya, narealize ko na hindi naman pala siya dapat malungkot. kasi sobrang daming taong nakmamahal sa kanya at hindi nakakalimot sa kanya kahit hindi na niya yun madalas makasama.

ang galing rin ni sir ace kasi talagang chinaga niyang replyan bawat post. sa sarili kong pananaw, napakahumble ng dating nun. ewan ko lang sa iba XD basta ang galing nakakatuwa talaga.

happy na, birthday pa! :D
okay, phone lang ulit gamit ko ngayon T_____T hindi pa kasi ako nakakagamit ng computer. chaka medyo tinatamad na rin ako makopen ng computer kasi nakakapakcheck naman ako ng notifications gamit tong phone ko. e madalas naman facebook lang ginagawa ko. chaka di naman ako mahilig sa mga applications, pangcommunicate lang talaga yung purpose ng facebook ko.

nashare lang.

4/3/10

kasalukuyang akong gumagamit ng cellphone ngayon kaya medyo complicated na maktype. pinipilit ko na lang gayahin yung style ng paktatype ko pak computer ang gamit ko. pero pramis, mahirap!

anyway, gusto ko lang makupdate ngayon :D matagal tagal na rin kasi akong hindi nakakapakpost. nakloloko kasi yung mga program sa desktop ngayon kaya tinatamad akong gamitin yun. tapos yung laptop naman ni madur sira yung touch pad. ayaw pa naman gumana nung reserbang mouse. hay.

para tuloy akong pinagkakaisahan. hahahahahah

4/1/10

wuhhhh~ pakatapos ng holy week sunod sunod na yung gala ko!!

5 - clearance / charism meeting / redbox with F4
6 - empi's farewell party with charism
7 - trip trip sa bahay ni rheca with F4 and jep
8 - submit ng form sa FEU / flight ni empi
9 - ozine fest 2k10 day 1 (megamall) with geib
10 - ozine fest 2k10 day 2 (megamall) / domination IV (smx)
11 - ozine fest 2k10 day 3 (megamall) with rheca and jep
12 - look for a job
16 - 3 day mallwide sale! / release of cards
17 - 3 day mallwide sale!
18 -3 day mallwide sale!
23 - rod's graduation day
25 - charism's day! ahahah swimming men~

hindi pa naman sure yung iba dyan. pero basta ang dami. kailangan ko rin ng maraming pera wuhhh
kung ako ang tatanungin, ayoko talagang umalis dahil ayoko mahiwalay sa kanya... pero kahit gaano namin kagusto na pigilan yung pakalis ko, parang wala naman kami magawa. kahit gustuhin ko na tumakas, parang imposible rin na magawa ko yun dahil hindi yun tama. kung gagawin ko man yun, pati sila madadamay. ayoko namang umabot sa ganung punto. kaya ang dapat na lang gawin namin ay ienjoy yung mga oras na magkasama pa kami.



pero bakit ganun... malungkot pa rin siya. ayokong nakikitang malungkot si jep. haaay

ang emo ng post na to leche.