4/13/09

im confused~ im wondering why am i like this? both falling for ladies and germs OwO i still dont understand why am i falling for the same gender :3 influence ba to ng tatu? meh gulay! im influenced by two childish ladies :3 is this what they call hormonal imbalance? insecurities? or love? OwO

do i have hormonal imbalance? maybe i have lotsa lotsa male cells :3 wahahahah kaya siguro antindi ng kapit sa chikas XD nyahahah but i still fall for guys /hmm this is way too faaaar

am i insecure with other ladies? no, im not! in the first place why get insecure? right? maybe im just fascinated by their beauties. they are really attractive, some are hot and some are so damn gorgeous :3 un tipong nililingon mo talaga! na kahit siguro babaeng babae ako matitibo ako :D

how about love? oh yeah? i can feel that sometimes :3 on some other ladies :D :D sometimes i want to be with em :3 maybe because grrrls are sweeter than the guys~ they know how to take good care a relationship :3 its also easy to talk to em because theyre also like me. am i out of love? wtf!! wayyyy too far~

speaking of love :3 mandark and i have to break up for some reasons. honestly, it really hurts. fuck im so depressed right now! its hard to pretend that everythings going very smooth for me after our break up. ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganto T^T i really dont want to do this! i dont know what to do.. my blog isnt enough for me to express what i really feel right now. i wanna shout, cry, kill and even die! a case of rh couldnt help T^T cause hes the one that i really need :3

what should i do by now? talk to him? nuuuu~ i dont want to talk to him! or not yet? ;3 haays ayoko naman talaga cha mawala saken T^T fuckk! i feel like im lost in wilderness!! im so much in love with mandark~ i know im not willing to give everything.. i have limitations thats why i dont know how can i show how much i love him T^T fuck i want to die now.

i no longer text him :3 im too lazy (lagi naman ako tamad maktext XD) di na nga rin nya ko naalalang itext e T^T at dahil dun, masyado ko na syang namimiss waaaa T^T un hart ko parang ganto cha ngayon :: wak na natin sabihin broken hearted masyadong pang emo yakk XD

is he already going to turn his back on me? is he going to leave me? paktay sya saken pak nanyare un XD dadanak andugo nyahahah pero malamang di na nya ko lab kun ganun aww T^T mas okii pa un nakhahabol sya kesa un break up with no goodbyes~ but i guess di cha agad makakamove on e! un pa nako! im sure naksisisi na un to the highest level everness! wahahahha its really nakakasad cause im not with kero when hes sad :3 wala man lang makokomport sa kuhlafung juding un! useless naman mga kebigan nun e XD wahahahah nandamay pa ampota

i want to hagg that effin loser frog~ my life here right now is sooo cold as snow even though i havent seen a snow in my entire life nyok nyok~ i miss him like HELL! i wanna feel his love T^T tapos un mismong gabe na nakbreak kami, napanaginipan ko cha T^T ansaya saya pa naman nun dream ko! i thought it was really really REALLY real T^T oh well.. i love kero even though hes like that and even though he is such an emo! :3 meh gulay! i ate my words of not having a boyfriend! tsk tsk and damn emoboy pa XD hushh this is karma! and karma hits me! fuck.

wala e. lab ko e. amp. naman talaga oh! iba talaga pak inlab~ puro sya nalang napopost ko dito sa blog ko wahahahah pak iniwan nya ko malamang sya parin un nandito sa blog ko wahahahahahahah i dont wanna be in love. hush love is killin me! mandark is killin me XD i love him alot~ whoa! teka nga teka nga! i cant remember the main topic of my post! masyado akong nacarried away sa aking labs nyokk! owuu na bitter na masyado ako XD

(after 15 minutes)

ahh naalala ko na! im having a problem with my personality~ i cant stop falling for hot girrrls OwO nako andame wameng temptation dito sa manila. anbad pa dun, sa babae ako napapatinen! grr.. masyado akong naaakit sa babae :3 but i cant leave kero~ at least diba di ibang babae o lalake andahilan ng break up namin ;p masyado lang sya nadadala ng kanyang EMOSYON at IMAHINASYON XD di na kelangan ng broad explanation.. kami nalang nakakaalam nun ;p ;p ;p

haay sana maging boy na ako o kaya girl na. para walang problem diba? nako napakagulo..